Part 4
DESIRE
- FOOD – SEX
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It
is true that the mere suppression or holding down of desire
is not enough, not by itself truly effective, but that does
not mean that desires are to be indulged; it means that desires
have not merely to be suppressed, but to be rejected from the
nature. In place of desire there must be a single-minded aspiration
towards the Divine.
As
for love, the love must be turned singly towards the Divine. What
men call by that name is a vital interchange for mutual satisfaction
of desire, vital impulse or physical pleasure. There must be nothing
of this interchange between sadhaks; for to seek for it or indulge
this kind of impulse only leads away from the sadhana.

The
whole principle of this yoga is to give oneself entirely to the
Divine alone and to nobody and nothing else, and to bring down into
ourselves by union with the Divine Mother-Power all the transcendent
light, force, wideness, peace, purity, truth-consciousness and Ananda
of the supramental Divine. In this yoga, therefore, there can be
no place for vital relations or interchanges with others; any such
relation or interchange immediately ties down the soul to the lower
consciousness and its lower nature, prevents the true and full union
with the Divine and hampers both the ascent to the supramental Truth-consciousness
and the descent of the supramental Ishwari Shakti. Still worse would
it be if this interchange took the form of a sexual relation or
a sexual enjoyment, even if kept free from any outward act; therefore
these things are absolutely forbidden in the sadhana. It goes without
saying that any physical act of the kind is not allowed; but also
any subtler form is ruled out. It is only after becoming one with
the supramental Divine that we can find our true spiritual relations
with others in the Divine; in that higher unity this kind of gross
lower vital movement can have no place.
To
master the sex-impulse,—to become so much master of the sex-centre
that the sexual energy would be drawn upwards, not thrown outwards
and wasted—it is so indeed that the force in the seed can be turned
into a primal physical energy supporting all the others, retas into
ojas. But no error can be more perilous than to accept the immixture
of the sexual desire and some kind of subtle satisfaction of it
and look on this as a part of the sadhana. It would be the most
effective way to head straight towards spiritual downfall and throw
into the atmosphere forces that would block the supramental descent,
bringing instead the descent of adverse vital powers to disseminate
disturbance and disaster. This deviation must be absolutely thrown
away, should it try to occur and expunged from the consciousness,
if the Truth is to be brought down and the work is to be done.
It
is an error too to imagine that, although the physical sexual action
is to be abandoned, yet some inward reproduction of it is part of
the transformation of the sex-centre. The action of the animal sex-energy
in Nature is a device for a particular purpose in the economy of
the material creation in the Ignorance. But the vital excitement
that accompanies it makes the most favourable opportunity and vibration
in the atmosphere for the inrush of those very vital forces and
beings whose whole business is to prevent the descent of the supramental
Light. The pleasure attached to it is a degradation and not a true
form of the divine Ananda. The true divine Ananda in the physical
has a different quality and movement and substance; self-existent
in its essence, its manifestation is dependent only on an inner
union with the Divine. You have spoken of Divine Love; but Divine
Love, when it touches the physical, does not awaken the gross lower
vital propensities; indulgence of them would only repel it and make
it withdraw again to the heights from which it is already difficult
enough to draw it down into the coarseness of the material creation
which it alone can transform. Seek the Divine Love through the only
gate through which it will consent to enter, the gate of the psychic
being, and cast away the lower vital error.
The
transformation of the sex-centre and its energy is needed for the
physical siddhi; for this is the support in the body of all the
mental, vital and physical forces of the nature. It has to be changed
into a mass and a movement of intimate Light, creative Power, pure
divine Ananda. It is only the bringing down of the supramental Light,
Power and Bliss into the centre that can change it. As to the working
afterwards, it is the supramental Truth and the creative vision
and will of the Divine Mother that will determine it. But it will
be a working of the conscious Truth, not of the Darkness and Ignorance
to which sexual desire and enjoyment belong; it will be a power
of preservation and free desireless radiation of the life-forces
and not of their throwing out and waste. Avoid the imagination that
the supramental life will be only a heightened satisfaction of the
desires of the vital and the body; nothing can be a greater obstacle
to the Truth in its descent than this hope of glorification of the
animal in the human nature. Mind wants the supramental state to
be a confirmation of its own cherished ideas and preconceptions;
the vital wants it to be a glorification of its own desires; the
physical wants it to be a rich prolongation of its own comforts
and pleasures and habits. If it were to be that, it would be only
an exaggerated and highly magnified consummation of the animal and
the human nature, not a transition from the human into the Divine.
It
is dangerous to think of giving up “all barrier of discrimination
and defence against what is trying to descend” upon you. Have you
thought what this would mean if what is descending is something
not in consonance with the divine Truth, perhaps even adverse? An
adverse Power would ask no better condition for getting control
over the seeker. It is only the Mother's force and the divine Truth
that one should admit without barriers. And even there one must
keep the power of discernment in order to detect anything false
that comes masquerading as the Mother's force and the divine Truth,
and keep too the power of rejection that will throw away all mixture.
Keep
faith in your spiritual destiny, draw back from error and open more
the psychic being to the direct guidance of the Mother's light and
power. If the central will is sincere, each recognition of a mistake
can become a stepping-stone to a truer movement and a higher progress.

I
have stated very briefly in my previous letter my position with
regard to the sex-impulse and yoga. I may add here that my conclusion
is not founded on any mental opinion or preconceived moral idea,
but on probative facts and on observation and experience. I do not
deny that so long as one allows a sort of separation between inner
experience and outer consciousness, the latter being left as an
inferior activity controlled but not transformed, it is quite possible
to have spiritual experiences and make progress without any entire
cessation of the sex-activity. The mind separates itself from the
outer vital (life-parts) and the physical consciousness and lives
its own inner life. But only a few can really do this with any completeness
and the moment one's experiences extend to the life-plane and the
physical, sex can no longer be treated in this way. It can become
at any moment a disturbing, upsetting and deforming force. I have
observed that to an equal extent with ego (pride, vanity, ambition)
and rajasic greeds and desires it is one of the main causes of the
spiritual casualties that have taken place in sadhana. The attempt
to treat it by detachment without complete excision breaks down;
the attempt to sublimate it, favoured by many modern mystics in
Europe, is a most rash and perilous experiment. For it is when one
mixes up sex and spirituality that there is the greatest havoc.
Even the attempt to sublimate it by turning it towards the Divine
as in the Vaishnava madhura bhava carries in it a serious
danger, as the results of a wrong turn or use in this method so
often show. At any rate in this yoga which seeks not only the essential
experience of the Divine but a transformation of the whole being
and nature, I have found it an absolute necessity of the sadhana
to aim at a complete mastery over the sex-force; otherwise the vital
consciousness remains a turbid mixture, the turbidity affecting
the purity of the spiritualised mind and seriously hindering the
upward turn of the forces of the body. This yoga demands a full
ascension of the whole lower or ordinary consciousness to join the
spiritual above it and a full descent of the spiritual (eventually
of the supramental) into the mind, life and body to transform it.
The total ascent is impossible so long as sex-desire blocks the
way; the descent is dangerous so long as sex-desire is powerful
in the vital. For at any moment an unexcised or latent sex-desire
may be the cause of a mixture which throws back the true descent
and uses the energy acquired for other purposes or turns all the
action of the consciousness towards wrong experience, turbid and
delusive. One must, therefore, clear this obstacle out of the way;
otherwise there is either no safety or no free movement towards
finality in the sadhana.
The
contrary opinion of which you speak may be due to the idea that
sex is a natural part of the human vital-physical whole, a necessity
like food and sleep, and that its total inhibition may lead to unbalancing
and to serious disorders. It is a fact that sex suppressed in outward
action but indulged in other ways may lead to disorders of the system
and brain troubles. That is the root of the medical theory which
discourages sexual abstinence. But I have observed that these things
happen only when there is either secret indulgence of a perverse
kind replacing the normal sexual activity or else an indulgence
of it in a kind of subtle vital way by imagination or by an invisible
vital interchange of an occult kind,—I do not think harm ever occurs
when there is a true spiritual effort at mastery and abstinence.
It is now held by many medical men in Europe that sexual abstinence,
if it is genuine, is beneficial; for the element in the retas
which serves the sexual act is then changed into its other element
which feeds the energies of the system, mental, vital and physical—and
that justifies the Indian idea of Brahmacharya, the transformation
of retas into ojas and the raising of its energies
upward so that they change into a spiritual force.
As
for the method of mastery, it cannot be done by physical abstinence
alone—it proceeds by a process of combined detachment and rejection.
The consciousness stands back from the sex-impulse, feels it as
not its own, as something alien thrown on it by Nature-force to
which it refuses assent or identification—each time a certain movement
of rejection throws it more and more outward. The mind remains unaffected;
after a time the vital being which is the chief support withdraws
from it in the same way, finally the physical consciousness no longer
supports it. This process continues until even the subconscient
can no longer rouse it up in dream and no further movement comes
from the outer Nature-force to rekindle this lower fire. This is
the course when the sex-propensity sticks obstinately; but there
are some who can eliminate it decisively by a swift radical dropping
away from the nature. That, however, is more rare.
It
has to be said that the total elimination of the sex-impulse is
one of the most difficult things in sadhana and one must be prepared
for it to take time. But its total disappearance has been achieved
and a practical liberation crossed only by occasional dream-movements
from the subconscient is fairly common.
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