Part 4
DESIRE
- FOOD – SEX
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If
you want to do yoga, you must take more and more in all matters,
small or great, the yogic attitude. In our path that attitude
is not one of forceful suppression, but of detachment and equality
with regard to the objects of desire. Forceful suppression (fasting
comes under the head) stands on the same level as free indulgence;
in both cases, the desire remains; in the one it is fed by indulgence,
in the other it lies latent and exasperated by suppression.
It is only when one stands back, separates oneself from the
lower vital, refusing to regard its desires and clamours as
one's own, and cultivates an entire equality and equanimity
in the consciousness with respect to them that the lower vital
itself becomes gradually purified and itself also calm and equal.
Each wave of desire as it comes must be observed, as quietly
and with as much unmoved detachment as you would observe something
going on outside you, and allowed to pass, rejected from the
consciousness, and the true movement, the trueconsciousness
steadily put in its place.

It
is the attachment to food, the greed and eagerness for it, making
it an unduly important thing in the life, that is contrary to the
spirit of yoga. To be aware that something is pleasant to the palate
is not wrong; only one must have no desire nor hankering for it,
no exultation in getting it, no displeasure or regret at not getting
it. One must be calm and equal, not getting upset or dissatisfied
when the food is not tasty or not in abundance—eating the fixed
amount that is necessary, not less or more. There should be neither
eagerness nor repugnance.
To
be always thinking about food and troubling the mind is quite the
wrong way of getting rid of the food-desire. Put the food element
in the right place in the life, in a small corner, and don't concentrate
on it but on other things.

Do
not trouble your mind about food. Take it in the right quantity
(neither too much nor too little), without greed or repulsion, as
the means given you by the Mother for the maintenance of the body,
in the right spirit, offering it to the Divine in you; then it
need not create tamas.

It
is no part of this yoga to suppress taste, rasa, altogether. What
is to be got rid of is vital desire and attachment, the greed of
food, being overjoyed at getting the food you like, sorry and discontented
when you do not have it, giving an undue importance to it. Equality
is here the test as in so many other matters.

The
idea of giving up food is a wrong inspiration. You can go on with
a small quantity of food, but not without food altogether, except
for a comparatively short time. Remember what the Gita says, “Yoga
is not for one who eats in excess nor for one who abstains from
eating altogether.” Vital energy is one thing—of that one can draw
a great amount without food and often it increases with fasting;
but physical substance, without which life loses its support, is
of a different order.

Neither
neglect this turn of the nature (food-desire) nor make too much
of it; it has to be dealt with, purified and mastered but without
giving it too much importance. There are two ways of conquering
it—one of detachment, learning to regard food as only a physical
necessity and the vital satisfaction of the stomach and the palate
as a thing of no importance; the other is to be able to take without
insistence or seeking any food given and to find in it (whether
pronounced good or bad by others) the equal rasa, not of the food
for its own sake, but of the universal Ananda.

It
is a mistake to neglect the body and let it waste away; the body
is the means of the sadhana and should be maintained in good order.
There should be no attachment to it, but no contempt or neglect
either of the material part of our nature.
In
this yoga the aim is not only the union with the higher consciousness
but the transformation (by its power) of the lower including the
physical nature.
It
is not necessary to have desire or greed of food in order to eat.
The yogi eats not out of desire, but to maintain the body.

It
is a fact that by fasting, if the mind and the nerves are solid
or the will-force dynamic, one can get for a time into a state of
inner energy and receptivity which is alluring to the mind and the
usual reactions of hunger, weakness, intestinal disturbance, etc.,
can be wholly avoided. But the body suffers by diminution and there
can easily develop in the vital a morbid overstrained condition
due to the inrush of more vital energy than the nervous system can
assimilate or co-ordinate. Nervous people should avoid the temptation
to fast, it is often accompanied or followed by delusions and a
loss of balance. Especially if there is a motive of hunger-strike
or that element comes in, fasting becomes perilous, for it is then
an indulgence of a vital movement which may easily become a habit
injurious and pernicious to the sadhana. Even if all these reactions
are avoided, still there is no sufficient utility in fasting, since
the higher energy and receptivity ought to come not by artificial
or physical means but by intensity of the consciousness and strong
will for the sadhana.

The
transformation to which we aspire is too vast and complex to come
at one stroke; it must be allowed to come by stages. The physical
change is the last of these stages and is itself a progressive process.
The
inner transformation cannot be brought about by physical means either
of a positive or a negative nature. On the contrary, the physical
change itself can only be brought about by a descent of the greater
supramental consciousness into the cells of the body. Till then
at least the body and its supporting energies have to be maintained
in part by the ordinary means, food, sleep, etc. Food has to be
taken in the right spirit, with the right consciousness; sleep has
to be gradually transformed into the yogic repose. A premature and
excessive physical austerity, Tapasya, may endanger the process
of thesadhana by establishing a disturbance and abnormality of the
forces in the different parts of the system. A great energy may
pour into the mental and vital parts but the nerves and the body
may be overstrained and lose the strength to support the play of
these higher energies. This is the reason why an extreme physical
austerity is not included here as a substantive part of the sadhana.
There
is no harm in fasting from time to time for a day or two or in reducing
the food taken to a small but sufficient modicum; but entire abstinence
for a long period is not advisable.

The
sadhak has to turn away entirely from the invasion of the vital
and the physical by the sex-impulse - for,
if he does not conquer the sex-impulse there can be no settling
in the body of the divine consciousness and the divine Ananda.
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