Part 3
IN
DIFFICULTY
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There
are always difficulties and a hampered progress in the early stages
and a delay in the opening of the inner doors until the being is
ready. If you feel whenever you meditate the quiescence and the
flashes of the inner Light and if the inward urge is growing so
strong that the external hold is decreasing and the vital disturbances
are losing their force, that is already a great progress. The road
of yoga is long, every inch of ground has to be won against much
resistance and no quality is more needed by the sadhak than patience
and single-minded perseverance with a faith that remains firm through
all difficulties, delays and apparent failures.

These
obstacles are usual in the first stages of the sadhana. They are
due to the nature being not yet sufficiently receptive. You should
find out where the obstacle is, in the mind or the vital, and try
to widen the consciousness there, call in more purity and peace
and in that purity and peace offer that part of your being sincerely
and wholly to the Divine Power.

Each
part of the nature wants to go on with its old movements and refuses,
so far as it can, to admit a radical change and progress, because
that would subject it to something higher than itself and deprive
it of its sovereignty in its own field, its separate empire. It
is this that makes transformation so long and difficult a process.
Mind
gets dulled because at its lower basis is the physical mind with
its principle of tamas or inertia—for in matter inertia is the fundamental
principle. A constant or long continuity of higher experiences produces
in this part of mind a sense of exhaustion or reaction of unease
or dullness. Trance or sam\=adhi is a way of escape—the body is
made quiet, the physical mind is in a state of torpor, the inner
consciousness is left free to go on with its experiences. The disadvantage
is that trance becomes indispensable and the problem of the waking
consciousness is not solved; it remains imperfect.

If
the difficulty in meditation is that thoughts of all kinds come
in, that is not due to hostile forces but to the ordinary nature
of the human mind. All sadhaks have this difficulty and with many
it lasts for a very long time. There are several ways of getting
rid of it. One of them is to look at the thoughts and observe what
is the nature of the human mind as they show it but not to give
any sanction and to let them run down till they come to a standstill—this
is a way recommended by Vivekananda in his Rajayoga. Another is
to look at the thoughts as not one's own, to stand back as the witness
Purusha and refuse the sanction—the thoughts are regarded as things
coming from outside, from Prakriti, and they must be felt as if
they were passers-by crossing the mind-space with whom one has no
connection and in whom one takes no interest. In this way it usually
happens that after a time the mind divides into two, a part which
is the mental witness watching and perfectly undisturbed and quiet
and a part which is the object of observation, the Prakriti part
in which the thoughts cross or wander. Afterwards one can proceed
to silence or quiet the Prakriti part also. There is a third, an
active method by which one looks to see where the thoughts come
from and finds they come not from oneself, but from outside the
head as it were; if one can detect them coming, then, before they
enter, they have to be thrown away altogether. This is perhaps the
most difficult way and not all can do it, but if it can be done
it is the shortest and most powerful road to silence.

It
is necessary to observe and know the wrong movements in you; for
they are the source of your trouble and have to be persistently
rejected if you are to be free.
But
do not be always thinking of your defects and wrong movements. Concentrate
more upon what you are to be, on the ideal, with the faith that,
since it is the goal before you, it must and will come.
To
be always observing faults and wrong movements brings depression
and discourages the faith. Turn your eyes more to the coming light
and less to any immediate darkness. Faith, cheerfulness, confidence
in the ultimate victory are the things that help,—they make the
progress easier and swifter.
Make
more of the good experiences that come to you; one experience of
the kind is more important than the lapses and failures. When it
ceases, do not repine or allow yourself to be discouraged, but be
quiet within and aspire for its renewal in a stronger form leading
to a still deeper and fuller experience.
Aspire
always, but with more quietude, opening yourself to the Divine simply
and wholly.

The
lower vital in most human beings is full of grave defects and of
movements that respond to hostile forces. A constant psychic opening,
a persistent rejection of these influences, a separation of oneself
from all hostile suggestions and the inflow of the calm, light,
peace, purity of the Mother's power would eventually free the system
from the siege.
What
is needed is to be quiet and more and more quiet, to look on these
influences as something not yourself which has intruded, to separate
yourself from it and deny it and to abide in a quiet confidence
in the Divine Power. If your psychic being asks for the Divine and
your mind is sincere and calls for liberation from the lower nature
and from all hostile forces and if you can call the Mother's power
into your heart and rely upon it more than on your own strength,
this siege will in the end be driven away from you and strength
and peace take its place.

The
lower nature is ignorant and undivine, not in itself hostile but
shut to the Light and Truth. The hostile forces are anti-divine,
not merely undivine; they make use of the lower nature, pervert
it, fill it with distorted movements and by that means influence
man and even try to enter and possess or at least entirely control
him.
Free
yourself from all exaggerated self-depreciation and the habit of
getting depressed by the sense of sin, difficulty or failure. These
feelings do not really help, on the contrary, they are an immense
obstacle and hamper the progress. They belong to the religious,
not to the yogic mentality. The yogin should look on all the defects
of the nature as movements of the lower Prakriti common to all and
reject them calmly, firmly and persistently with full confidence
in the Divine Power—without weakness or depression or negligence
and without excitement, impatience or violence.

The
rule in yoga is not to let the depression depress you, to stand
back from it, observe its cause and remove the cause; for the cause
is always in oneself, perhaps a vital defect somewhere, a wrong
movement indulged or a petty desire causing a recoil, sometimes
by its satisfaction, sometimes by its disappointment. In yoga a
desire satisfied, a false movement given its head produces very
often a worse recoil than disappointed desire.
What
is needed for you is to live more deeply within, less in the outer
vital and mental part which is exposed to these touches. The inmost
psychic being is not oppressed by them; it stands in its own closeness
to the Divine and sees the small surface movements as surface things
foreign to the true Being.
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