Part 4
DESIRE
- FOOD – SEX
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13 , 14 , 15
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All
the ordinary vital movements are foreign to the true being and
come from outside; they do not belong to the soul nor do they
originate in it but are waves from the general Nature, Prakriti.
The
desires come from outside, enter the subconscious vital and rise
to the surface. It is only when they rise to the surface and the
mind becomes aware of them, that we become conscious of the desire.
It seems to us to be our own because we feel it thus rising from
the vital into the mind and do not know that it came from outside.
What belongs to the vital, to the being, what makes it responsible
is not the desire itself, but the habit of responding to the waves
or the currents of suggestion that come into it from the universal
Prakriti.

The
rejection of desire is essentially the rejection of the element
of craving, putting that out from the consciousness itself as a
foreign element not belonging to the true self and the inner nature.
But refusal to indulge the suggestions of desire is also a part
of the rejection; to abstain from the action suggested, if it is
not the right action, must be included in the yogic discipline.
It is only when this is done in the wrong way, by a mental ascetic
principle or a hard moral rule, that it can be called suppression.
The difference between suppression and an inward essential rejection
is the difference between mental or moral control and a spiritual
purification.
When
one lives in the true consciousness one feels the desires outside
oneself, entering from outside, from the universal lower Prakriti,
into the mind and the vital parts. In the ordinary human condition
this is not felt; men become aware of the desire only when it is
there, when it has come inside and found a lodging or a habitual
harbourage and so they think it is their own and a part of themselves.
The first condition for getting rid of desire is, therefore, to
become conscious with the true consciousness; for then it becomes
much easier to dismiss it than when one has to struggle with it
as if it were a constituent part of oneself to be thrown out from
the being. It is easier to cast off an accretion than to excise
what is felt as a parcel of our substance.
When
the psychic being is in front, then also to get rid of desire becomes
easy; for the psychic being has in itself no desires, it has only
aspirations and a seeking and love for the Divine and all things
that are or tend towards the Divine. The constant prominence of
the psychic being tends of itself to bring out the true consciousness
and set right almost automatically the movements of the nature.

Demand
and desire are only two different aspects of the same thing—nor
is it necessary that a feeling should be agitated or restless to
be a desire; it can be, on the contrary, quietly fixed and persistent
or persistently recurrent. Demand or desire comes from the mental
or the vital, but a psychic or spiritual need is a different thing.
The psychic does not demand or desire—it aspires; it does not make
conditions for its surrender or withdraw if its aspiration is not
immediately satisfied—for the psychic has complete trust in the
Divine or in the Guru and can wait for the right time or the hour
of the Divine Grace. The psychic has an insistence of its own, but
it puts its pressure not on the Divine, but on the nature, placing
a finger of light on all the defects there that stand in the way
of the realisation, sifting out all that is mixed, ignorant or imperfect
in the experience or in the movements of the yoga and never satisfied
with itself or with the nature till it has got it perfectly open
to the Divine, free from all forms of ego, surrendered, simple and
right in the attitude and all the movements. This is what has to
be established entirely in the mind and vital and in the physical
consciousness before supramentalisation of the whole nature is possible.
Otherwise what one gets is more or less brilliant, half-luminous,
half-cloudy illuminations and experiences on the mental and vital
and physical planes inspired either from some larger mind or larger
vital or at the best from the mental reaches above the human that
intervene between the intellect and the overmind. These can be very
stimulating and satisfying up to a certain point and are good for
those who want some spiritual realisation on these planes; but the
supramental realisation is something much more difficult and exacting
in its conditions and the most difficult of all is to bring it down
to the physical level.

Desire
takes a long time to get rid of entirely. But, if you can once get
it out of the nature and realise it as a force coming from outside
and putting its claws into the vital and physical, it will be easier
to get rid of the invader. You are too accustomed to feel it as
part of yourself or planted in you—that makes it more difficult
for you to deal with its movements and dismiss its ancient control
over you.
You
should not rely on anything else alone, however helpful it may seem,
but chiefly, primarily, fundamentally on the Mother's Force. The
Sun and the Light may be a help, and will be if it is the true Light
and the true Sun, but cannot take the place of the Mother's Force.

The
necessities of a sadhak should be as few as possible; for
there are only a very few things that are real necessities in life.
The rest are either utilities or things decorative to life or luxuries.
These a yogin has a right to possess or enjoy only on one of two
conditions —
(1)
If he uses them during his sadhana solely to train himself in possessing
things without attachment or desire and learn to use them rightly,
in harmony with the Divine Will, with a proper handling, a just
organisation, arrangement and measure—or,
(2)
if he has already attained a true freedom from desire and attachment
and is not in the least moved or affected in any way by loss or
withholding or deprival. If he has any greed, desire, demand, claim
for possession or enjoyment, any anxiety, grief, anger or vexation
when denied or deprived, he is not free in spirit and his use of
the things he possesses is contrary to the spirit of sadhana. Even
if he is free in spirit, he will not be fit for possession if he
has not learned to use things not for himself, but for the Divine
Will, as an instrument, with the right knowledge and action in the
use, for the proper equipment of a life lived not for oneself but
for and in the Divine.

Asceticism
for its own sake is not the ideal of this yoga, but self-control
in the vital and right order in the material are a very important
part of it—and even an ascetic discipline is better for our purpose
than a loose absence of true control. Mastery of the material does
not mean having plenty and profusely throwing it out or spoiling
it as fast as it comes or faster. Mastery implies in it the right
and careful utilisation of things and also a self-control in their
use.
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