Part 2
FAITH
– ASPIRATION - SURRENDER
Page
5 , 6
, 7 , 8
It
is not advisable in the early stages of the sadhana to leave
everything to the Divine or expect everything from it without
the need of one's own endeavour. That is only possible when
the psychic being is in front and influencing the whole action
(and even then vigilance and a constant assent are necessary),
or else later on in the ultimate stages of the yoga when a direct
or almost direct supramental force is taking up the consciousness;
but this stage is very far away as yet. Under other conditions
this attitude is likely to lead to stagnation and inertia.
It
is only the more mechanical parts of the being that can truly say
they are helpless: the physical (material) consciousness, especially,
is inert in its nature and moved either by the mental and vital
or by the higher forces. But one has always the power to put the
mental will or vital push at the service of the Divine. One cannot
be sure of the immediate result, for the obstruction of the lower
Nature or the pressure of the adverse forces can often act successfully
for a time, even for a long time, against the necessary change.
One has then to persist, to put always the will on the side of the
Divine, rejecting what has to be rejected, opening oneself to the
true Light and the true Force, calling it down quietly, steadfastly,
without tiring, without depression or impatience, until one feels
the Divine Force at work and the obstacles beginning to give way.
You
say you are conscious of your ignorance and obscurity. If it is
only a general consciousness, that is not enough. But if you are
conscious of it in the details, in its actual working, then that
is sufficient to start with; you have to reject steadfastly the
wrong workings of which you are conscious and make your mind and
vital a quiet and clear field for the action of the Divine Force.

The
mechanical movements are always more difficult to stop by the mental
will, because they do not in the least depend upon reason or any
mental justification but are founded upon association or else a
mere mechanical memory and habit.
The
practice of rejection prevails in the end; but with personal effort
only, it may take a long time. If you can feel the Divine Power
working in you, then it should become easier.
There
should be nothing inert or tamasic in the self-giving to the guidance
and it should not be made by any part of the vital into a plea for
not rejecting the suggestions of lower impulse and desire.
There
are always two ways of doing the yoga—one by the action of a vigilant
mind and vital seeing, observing, thinking and deciding what is
or is not to be done. Of course it acts with the Divine Force behind
it, drawing or calling in that Force—for otherwise nothing much
can be done. But still it is the personal effort that is prominent
and assumes most of the burden.
The
other way is that of the psychic being, the consciousness opening
to the Divine, not only opening the psychic and bringing it forward,
but opening the mind, the vital and the physical, receiving the
Light, perceiving what is to be done, feeling and seeing it done
by the Divine Force itself and helping constantly by its own vigilant
and conscious assent to and call for the Divine working.
Usually
there cannot but be a mixture of these two ways until the consciousness
is ready to be entirely open, entirely submitted to the Divine's
origination of all its action. It is then that all responsibility
disappears and there is no personal burden on the shoulders of the
sadhak.

Whether
by tapasya or surrender does not matter, the one thing is to be
firm in setting one's face to the goal. Once one has set one's feet
on the way, how can one draw back from it to something inferior?
If one keeps firm, falls do not matter, one rises up again and goes
forward. If one is firm towards the goal, there can be on the way
to the Divine no eventual failure. And if there is something within
you that drives as surely there is, falterings or falls or failure
of faith make no eventual difference. One has to go on till the
struggle is over and there is the straight and open and thornless
way before us.

The
fire is the divine fire of aspiration and inner tapasya. When the
fire descends again and again with increasing force and magnitude
into the darkness of human ignorance, it at first seems swallowed
up and absorbed in the darkness, but more and more of the descent
changes the darkness into light, the ignorance and unconsciousness
of the human mind into spiritual consciousness.

To
practise Yoga implies the will to overcome all attachments and
turn to the Divine alone. The principal thing in the Yoga is to
trust in the Divine Grace at every step, to direct the thought continually
to the Divine and to offer oneself till the being opens and the
Mother's force can be felt working in the Adhar.

In
this yoga the whole principle is to open oneself to the Divine Influence.
It is there above you and, if you can once become conscious of it,
you have then to call it down into you. It descends into the mind
and into the body as Peace, as a Light, as a Force that works, as
the Presence of the Divine with or without form, as Ananda. Before
one has this consciousness, one has to have faith and aspire for
the opening. Aspiration, call, prayer are forms of one and the same
thing and are all effective; you can take the form that comes to
you or is easiest to you. The other way is concentration; you concentrate
your consciousness in the heart (some do it in the head or above
the head) and meditate on the Mother in the heart and call her in
there. One can do either and both at different times—whatever comes
naturally to you or you are moved to do at the moment. Especially
in the beginning the one great necessity is to get the mind quiet,
reject at the time of meditation all thoughts and movements that
are foreign to the sadhana. In the quiet mind there will be a progressive
preparation for the experience. But you must not become impatient,
if all is not done at once; it takes time to bring entire quiet
into the mind; you have to go on till the consciousness is ready.
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