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"Consciousness has no need of a
clear individual “I” to dispose variously the centralising stress,—wherever
the stress is put the “I” attaches itself to that, so that one thinks
of oneself as a mental being or physical being or whatever it may be.
The consciousness in me can dispose its stress in this way or the other
way—it may go down into the physical and work there in the physical nature
keeping all the rest behind or above for the time or it may go up into
the overhead level and stand above mind, life and body seeing them as
instrumental lower forms of itself or not seeing them at all and merged
in the free undifferentiated Self or it may throw itself into an active
dynamic cosmic consciousness and identify with that or do any number of
other things without resorting to the help of this much overrated and
meddlesome fly on the wheel which you call the clear individual “I”. The
real “I”—if you want to use that word—is not “clear individual,” that
is, a clear-cut limited separative ego, it is as wide as the universe
and wider and can contain the universe in itself, but that is not the
Ahankar, it is the Atman.
Consciousness is a fundamental thing,
the fundamental thing in existence—it is the energy, the motion, the movement
of consciousness that creates the universe and all that is in it—not only
the macrocosm but the microcosm is nothing but consciousness arranging
itself. For instance, when consciousness in its movement or rather a certain
stress of movement forgets itself in the action it becomes an apparently
“unconscious” energy; when it forgets itself in the form it becomes the
electron, the atom, the material object. In reality it is still consciousness
that works in the energy and determines the form and the evolution of
form. When it wants to liberate itself, slowly, evolutionarily, out of
Matter, but still in the form, it emerges as life, as animal, as man and
it can go on evolving itself still farther out of its involution and become
something more than mere man. If you can grasp that, then it ought not
to be difficult to see further that it can subjectively formulate itself
as a physical, a vital, a mental, a psychic consciousness—all these are
present in man, but as they are all mixed up together in the external
consciousness with their real status behind in the inner being, one can
only become fully aware of them by releasing the original limiting stress
of the consciousness which makes us live in our external being and become
awake and centred within in the inner being. As the consciousness in us,
by its external concentration or stress, has to put all these things behind—behind
a wall or veil, it has to break down the wall or veil and get back in
its stress into these inner parts of existence—that is what we call living
within; then our external being seems to us something small and superficial,
we are or can become aware of the large and rich and inexhaustible kingdom
within. So also consciousness in us has drawn a lid or covering or whatever
one likes to call it between the lower planes of mind, life, body supported
by the psychic and the higher planes which contain the spiritual kingdoms
where the self is always free and limitless, and it can break or open
the lid or covering and ascend there and become the Self free and wide
and luminous or else bring down the influence, reflection, finally even
the presence and power of the higher consciousness into the lower nature.
Now that is what consciousness is—it
is not composed of parts, it is fundamental to being and itself formulates
any parts it chooses to manifest—developing them from above downward by
a progressive coming down from spiritual levels towards involution in
Matter or formulating them in an upward working in the front by what we
call evolution. If it chooses to work in you through the sense of ego,
you think that it is the clear-cut individual “I” that does everything—if
it begins to release itself from that limited working, you begin to expand
your sense of “I” till it bursts into infinity and no longer exists or
you shed it and flower into spiritual wideness. Of course, this is not
what is spoken of in modern materialistic thought as consciousness, because
that thought is governed by science and sees consciousness only as a phenomenon
that emerges out of inconscient Matter and consists of certain reactions
of the system to outward things. But that is a phenomenon of consciousness,
it is not consciousness itself, it is even only a very small part of the
possible phenomenon of consciousness and can give no clue to Consciousness
the Reality which is of the very essence of existence.
That is all at present. You will have
to fix yourself in that—for it is fundamental—before it can be useful
to go any further."
-Sri Aurobindo
Volume: 22-23-24 [SABCL] (Letters on Yoga), Page:
236
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