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Is an emotion always
a vital movement?
It depends on the emotion and it also depends
on what you call an emotion. For example, there is a state where,
if you find yourself in the presence of a very precise, very clear
psychic movement, a distinctly psychic movement - this happens quite
often -the emotion is so powerful that tears come to your eyes.
You are not sad, you are not happy, neither one nor the other; it
doesn't correspond to any particular feeling, but it is an intensity
of emotion which comes from something that is clearly, precisely
psychic. It may be in yourself, but it is even more often in someone
else. When you are in contact with an act, a movement, a manifestation
which belongs to the psychic, then, all of a sudden, the eyes are
filled with tears. If you call that an emotion... obviously it is
an emotion. But usually, it comes from one thing: the physical being
has a not very conscious but very intense longing for a contact
with the psychic life. It feels poor, destitute, isolated and abandoned
when it is not in contact with the psychic being. Not one physical
being in a million is aware of this. But this kind of impression
of being lost, left hanging, without protection, without support,
of lacking something and not knowing what it is, something you don't
understand but which you lack, an emptiness somewhere: well, this
comes more often than one thinks -people have no idea what it is.
But then, when for some reason or otfier this consciousness suddenly
comes into contact with a clearly psychic phenomenon, with psychic
forces, psychic vibrations, the feeling is so strong, so strong
that certainly, most often, the body can hardly hold it. It is like
a joy that is too great, that overflows on all sides, that you can't
contain, can't hold in yourself. It is like that. There is suddenly
a sort of revelation, not very conscious, not clearly expressed,
the revelation of. ..this is it, this is what I must have. And it
is so powerful, so powerful that it gives you an emotion, which
is made up of so many things that you can hardly say what it is.
These are emotions that are not vital.
Vital emotions are of an altogether different nature
- they are very clear, very precise, you can express them very distinctly;
they are violent, they usually fill you with an intensity, a restlessness,
sometimes a great satisfaction. And then the opposite comes with
the same force. And so people, many people think -we have mentioned
this several times already -some people imagine they experience
love only when it is like that, when love is in the vital, when
it comes with all the movements of the vital, all this intensity,
this violence, this precision, this glamour, this brightness. And
when that is absent they say, "Oh, this is not love."
And yet that is exactly how love gets distorted
already it is no longer love, it is beginning to be passion. And
this is an almost universal error among human beings.
Some people are full of a very pure, very high, very
selfless psychic love and yet they know nothing about it and think
they are cold, dry and without love because this admixture of vital
vibration is absent. For them love begins and ends with this vibration.
And as it is something highly unstable which has movements
and reactions and violences of all kinds, in depression as in satisfaction,
love is something very ephemeral for these people: they have minutes
of love in their lives. It may last a few hours and then it becomes
dull and flat again and they imagine that love has deserted them.
As I said, some people are quite beyond that, they have
been able to control it in such away that it does not get mixed
up with anything else; they have in themselves this psychic love
which is full of self-forgetfulness, of self- giving, compassion,
generosity, nobility of life, and is a great power of i.dentification.
So most of these people think they are cold or indifferent -they
are very nice people, you see, but they do not love -and sometimes
they themselves do not know. I have known people who thought they
had no love because they didn't have this vital vibration. Usually,
when people speak of emotions, they are speaking of vital emotions.
But there is another kind of emotion which is of an infinitely higher
order and doesn't express itself in the same way, which has just
as much intensity, but an intensity that is under control, contained,
condensed, concentrated, and is an extraordi- nary dynamic power
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True love can achieve extraordinary things, but
it is rare. All kinds of miracles can be done out of love for the
person one loves -not for everyone, but for the people or the person
one loves. But it has to be a love free from all vital mixture,
an absolutely pure and selfless love which demands nothing in return,
which expects nothing in return.
THE
MOTHER
It is also a mistake to think that
the vital alone has warmth and the psychic is something frigid without
any flame in it. A clear limpid goodwill is a very good and desirable
thing. But that is not what is meaniby psychic love. Love is love
and not merely goodwill. Psychic love can have a warmth and a flame
as intense and more intense than the vital, only it is a pure fire,
not dependent on the satisfaction of ego-desire or on the eating
up of the fuel it embraces. It is a white flame, not a red one;
but white heat is not inferior to the red variety in its ardour.
It is true that the psychic love does not usually get its full play
in human relations and human nature; it finds the fullness of its
fire and ecstasy more easily when it is lifted towards the Divine.
In the human relation the psychic love gets mixed up with other
elements which seek at once to use it and overshadow it. It gets
an outlet for its own full intensities only at rare moments. Otherwise
it comes in only as an element, but even so it contributes all the
higher things in a love fundamentally vital- all the finer sweetness,
tenderness, fidelity, self-giving, self-sacrifice, reachings of
soul to soul, idealising sublimations that lift up human love be-
yond itself, come from the psychic. If it could dominate and govern
and transmute the other elements, mental, vital, physical, of human
love, then love could be on the earth some reflection or preparation
of the real thing, an integral union of the soul and its instruments
in a dual life. But even some imperfect appearance of that is rare.
SRI AUROBINDO
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